My Commitment to God

On Saturday, October 9, 2010, I made a life long commitment to the one and only Jesus Christ. My daughter Karina and I were both Baptize. I can't put into words how special this is to me. I woke up in the morning feeling so great and looking forward to my Baptism until my encounter with the hubby. I was hoping my husband would join me for this special blessing but he had plans. He had to go buy pool supplies and clean our pool. For some reason it had to get done that morning. I soon realized that he just did not want part of it, which I tried very hard not to take it personal. I was a little hurt but I need to constantly remind myself not to put pressure on my husband when it comes to God. I left it as that and went on my merry way to my Baptism. The weather was so beautiful, not a cloud in the sky. There must have been over 400 people in total getting Baptize. It was very emotional for me. At times I laugh at my own self because lately when it comes to God, I am just an emotional mess. Anyway, it was a beautiful event and one I will never forget. According to the Bible, Christian baptism is important because it is a step of obedience—publicly declaring faith in Christ and commitment to Him—an identification with Christ’s death, burial, and resurrection. On that day, my sins were washed away. Its a new beginning for me. I know with taking this step the devil is going to be working overtime in my life and in my home. I ask for all my christain friends and family to please pray for me and my husband. My day continued on and I spent it with my niece. That same evening we went out to dinner to celebrate my baptism. The dinner location was good, the food was great but the conversation going on the table was very sour. They say never to discuss politics or religion when you are in a group of friends. That is so true. Somewhere during our dinner we started to talk about the baptism and what it signifies. This made my husband very uncomfortable and of course he had his guard up and finally let out why does anyone have to believe in GOD. Everyone at the table gave their reasons and he argued every single one back with negative comments. He feels who said we have to believe. Just because the bible says to believe why do we feel we have to listen to that. The conversation was very uncomfortable, I was very embarrassed and knew than that the devil already started his work on my husband since he is the weak one right now. That very night I started reading the "Power of the praying Wife" by Stormie Omartian. I need to stay focus, continue to read his word and continue to pray for my husband. Trust me when I tell you its not easy. I am happy about the steps I am taking spiritually but sadden about my husband not knowing our GOD. I will continue to pray for him. Its really sad to see such a wonderful man, like he is, not knowing GOD. I need to remind myself that he did not come from a Christain home. In fact, I don't know anyone in his family that is dedicated to GOD. Although I grew up as a Catholic, I knew as a young girl about GOD. My parents did not attend church but they made sure I prayed every night and we've spoke about GOD. My husband did not have this in his life and at the age of 44 its going to be hard to make him understand. He is everything to me, he is a loving husband, a great dad, a hard worker and he takes good care of me and for this alone I will stand by him and continue to pray for him!!!!!

My Weekend

I had such a wonderful weekend that I wish they can all start and end like it did for me this past weekend. On Friday, I attended "Night of Worship" at my church. We sang the most beautiful songs ever. This Night of Worship was a little different this time. Normally we sing Glorious songs praising God for at least 2 hours but this time our Pastor did a little twist to our session of worship. Halfway through our worship he asked everyone to kneel. It felt a little awkward at first since I thought they only do the kneeling thing at Catholic churches. Anyway, as he proceeded he asked that we take the next few minutes while the band played a soft melody in the background and to talk with God directly. He asked that we have a one on one with our Lord and to talk to him from the heart. As I kneeled and started praying and talking to God, my tears started to roll non-stop one after the other. I strongly felt that special connection and spoke to him from the heart. I prayed, I thanked him and I asked him for his strength in dealing with issues in my life that I feel I have lost control in. Its funny how I felt lighter after this deep moment with him. Its amazing how things work. The rest of the night was heavenly, thanks to our Lord. Saturday was another nice day. I spent the day with my family and had some quality time with my Hubby. Right now my hubby and I are having problems that I am not sure how to handle. You see I am a Christain and he is not. I love the fact that I am growing in faith, but its bringing problems at home because of it. I pray each day that God would soften his heart and make him understand how great God is but it is a work in process. I have to continue to be strong which is extremly hard at times and stay focus on God. The last two weeks the devil was working his way in me and he almost won but thanks to my Christain family and friends they continue to remind me to stay focus on God and to be strong. Yesterday's service at Church was pretty interesting. I felt like the message was directed at me. You see, at times I procrastinate when I need to do certain things. This past week, I kept delaying my time with God. I kept doing other things and saying I'll pray later or do my reading later. I wasn't making God my priority. Yesterday's message was about being First. We want God to think of us first at times but we continue to leave him for last. We want to do everything that is not as important before dedicating a little time for him. The topic really hit me hard because it is so true. I made myself a promise to do my seeking first ting in the morning. Everything else can wait!!!!!

My Journey with God

For those of you that know me, you are probably wondering what is going on with me or what has happened to me. I am so happy to say that I am doing fine. Alot of changes has occur in my life in these past few months. Changes that I am still trying to grasp and understand. Let me go back a little about my life and this way you'll be able to understand where I come from and where I am heading. I became a Christain back in February 2009. When I took this step I really did not understand what was to take place in my life or what I was suppose to do from the moment I accepted jesus. All I know was that I was at church with my niece and her family and when my Pastor asked if there is anyone that wants to get saved and live a graceful and peaceful life to come right up. At that moment I had so much going on with me that when I heard the word "peace" I knew deep down I wanted that in my life. It was really an emotional moment for me. I was crying and I didn't know why. I started attending church but I didn't take it serious and just went to say that I went to church. As time went on, I stopped attending church for silly reasons. I just didn't know how to set my priorities in life. Now we are in 2010 and not much has changed for me. I am still living a hectic life. I am still longing to find peace in my life and lastly I was feeling empty but I didn't know why. This emptiness was causing alot of unhappiness in my life. I knew I had to do something before my whole life crumbles but I didn't know what to do. My niece Jasline invited me to a ladies bible study which I hesitantly accepted. During the study my mind was not there, I just felt so cold and couldn't understand why everyone around me was so happy and loving the fact that they were at a bible study. My niece was so concerned for me that she continued to invite me to other studies at her home and thats where it all began for me. We started doing weekly bible studies and I was really enjoying this time with GOD. I began to realize that the times I spend reading and learning about GOD I felt inner peace. At times when I am feeling stress and overwhelmed I wanted to read his word because I knew this was the only time I felt peace. This past May I started attending church again. I am currently attending another womens bible study. I thank GOD that he didn't give up on me. My niece is like my daughter and she is probably the only person that can get me to church. I thank her for not giving up on me either, for being there when I so needed GOD. For answering my many questions about GOD. I thank her for having the patience and love she has for me. I am seeing changes in me that I am still trying to understand but know that it is all going to make sense I just have to keep steady in my word with God and he is going to take care of me. My life is changing daily. I am craving his word more and more each day. I know he is going to guide me continuously. I am now understanding that he has plans for me, plans that will change my life completely. My choice to start this blog was to use it as my journal. I want to share my journey in knowing GOD better. I want to share what I am learning, my thoughts, insights and my answered prayers. Stay tuned as my Journey with GOD has only just begun!

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

Wendy